the thing about potentially getting with a roommate is that it hurts when they bring a chick home hah oops reasons i dont have feelings
he literally asked me if i liked him back and i shrugged. SHRUGGED! what is wrong with me why cant i just say what i actually feel whyyyy am i so scared :(
if he can stay sober long enough we might have a chance
i dont want to feel feelings because there is a better chance that l will be let down than happy. this could all be a joke, man. pity for unattractive.
i have literally been searching for all possible flaws and excuses since it has started.
i mean new guys never like me, like-like me. im literally always friendzoned so now that its possible for a nonfriendzoned relationship im like hahahaha nope and run away.
why cant i just be honest with myself and say i have feelings for him??? its not going to kill anyone… its one of the best things that could happen to me honestly and im just too damn scared.
i just need to get over this lack of goddam. self esteem. fuck me i hate it.
so the dude who is currently Gaston at Disney World is my ex boyfriend….. hes cocky and arrogant just like the character 😘
but honestly…. fuck feelings man. it might just be my vagina talking but this new guy has got my attention hehe
i hate me. i dont even mean that in a self esteem / depression way. my body, health wise, just fucking sucks. i dont even remember the last time i went a whole day without my stomach hurting. the morning is when jt hurts the most and it sucks. i usually cant get moving until sometime in the afternoon. i vomit at least every other week for a solid day and no doctor knows why. ive been in the hospital twice now, both times over night hooked up to IVs and just no one knows what is wrong.
i hate it. i dont want to constantly be in this pain that i cant do anything about. the moment i worry or get stressed about something my stomach gets like 3x worse. fuck everything dude.
i would rather be hooked up to needles at the hospital than feel all thia. it fucking sucks.
especially since all i do is worry and stress constantly.
holy sweet jesus i wish i could go one morning without waking up with the worst belly pains. literally every morning!!!! ive already missed two weeks of a class because of my stupid sickness that no doctors can seem to figure out. luckily im finally going to a specialist in february…. hopefully he will have some answers